it’s been a week since i found out. I turn around and look over at my daughter sleeping on the twin bed that we now share at my parent’s house and it breaks my heart. She doesn’t know what’s going on, she just thinks we’re at grandma and grandpa’s house and always asks when we’re going to go back home to daddy. Oh baby, this is our new home. No, mama! I want my home back! I want my room back!
me too baby. i want all of those back too.
I can’t sleep. Every time I close my eyes I just picture them. It’s a nightmare over and over again, on constant replay in my head.
I can count number of meals I have eaten on one hand these past seven days.
I just think of the perfect man he was for seven yeas and am so heartbreakingly disappointed that he turned out to be scum. I can’t believe that, I can’t process it. It goes against everything I thought I knew about the world. The oceans would have dried up before I thought he’d ever cheat.
i just want all of this to go away. i just want to grab my baby girl and leave, start fresh somewhere new and forget he ever existed.